there’s a light between my legs

there’s a light between my legs

it’s everlasting like that sanctuary blaze

that oil lamp of infinity 

maybe if you kiss me

where i’m wet and misty

you’ll feel eternity on your tongue

like you’ve just begun to live

once, i almost died

i looked into my own eyes

a deep brown mirror of fearlessness

and i cried

because we never really die

but we do hide 

there’s a light i’ve had to find

between my thighs

inside my sigh

a pulsing kind of pleasure

that never asks me to be better

just present, and open, and true

when i met you

when i met you 

the pain between my legs was like 

a baby born with fangs

patriarchy bites hard

leaves scars

rips things

i had to learn to touch the tissue tenderly

i had to learn it wasn’t supposed to bleed

i had to learn the ancient moaning sanctity

of flesh, under sheets, in the heat

of ravenous reverence 

i had to learn to ask 

and not mask my desire with expectation or obligation

with possession or resentful repression

i had to learn the excruciating vulnerability of wanting

i had to learn that i’m wanted 

that i’m wanted 

that i’m wanted

for more than just the light between my legs

i had to learn by being brave

with my achey little heart

and asking for the love

that got torn apart 

when i was a kid

isn’t this everything?

there’s a light between my legs

it travels through my belly

up my chest 

between my breasts

into my throat where i know how to speak so clearly

there’s a light on my tongue 

a song being sung 

a salvation song

this little light of mine

i’m gonna let it shine

this little light of mine

i’m gonna let it shine

there’s a light inside my soul

that knows

how to multiply trust

how to feed healthy lust

how to gush honesty 

because i’m worth it

because you’re worth it

because we’re worth it 

no matter where we started

or how hard our hearts have become

no matter what kind of dark muck 

got stuck inside our sanctuaries 

there’s an everlasting light 

that burns so incredibly bright

and we’re here to remember to tend that fire

until we’re not afraid of our desire

to be held

to be seen

to be all the things that make us human

right in plain sight

together